To Strive for the -ing

The words you spoke burned me out like a wildfire
And I loved it
Like a red-hot iron, you branded me with negativity
And I lived for it
With threats and empty promises you lied to me
And I believed it
How hard it is to say I want to stop looking through the lens of -ed
Because for far too long I have
Loved instead of loving
Lived instead of living
Laughed instead of laughing
Enjoyed instead of enjoying
Believed instead of believing
For now, I must replace the -ed with -ing and put the past behind me
So that I can proudly say
I strive for the -ing instead of the -ed